...mega...annoyed.

So I am in the middle of reading Dengeki Daisy. Yes, it's Shoujo manga, and yes I am allowed to be girly now and then.

My day actually started off really crap. Nightmare about something I couldn't control, followed by major anxiety, until eventually I got up off my ass and went for a drive/walk. By the way, did anyone ever notice how nice it is to see old people do Tai Chi and stuff in the park? I love it! Part of me can barely wait to do it too!!!!

There was one strikingly magical moment (and slightly horrifying/gross) where I was walking, when suddenly this huge flock of birds (pigeons, ducks, those strange hooked nose birds) just migrated from one side of the path to the other --with me standing right in the middle. It was a flurry of fluttering and beating of wings. At first I just stood there, transfixed as they moved around me. And then of course I ducked as one zipped past my head. Following that there was the horribly panicky moment where I wondered if I would get pooped on.

...Sorta broke the whole 'magical element' of it. Afterwards, my head felt itchy and I started panicking about fleas or flea-like parasites that may have jumped off the birds, onto me.

But hey, that one brief moment before all that --totally worth it.

...Why wasn't anyone there to see it?! Namely, why weren't there any goodlooking men on their way to work (maybe even a doctor bahaha) that would look across the park and be transfixed by the sight of a small asian girl caught in the middle of a flurry of wings and feathers?!

It was a movie moment and nobody was there to witness it! BAH! MEGA HUMBUG!

Spent the rest of the day reading Hatsukoi Limited, and then Dengeki Daisy. Didn't help that "You've got mail" starring Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks was on tv tonight too. I was all charged up on romantic daydreams, which were then crushed by the realization of harsh reality (that I'd gained weight and couldn't get it off, plus have no romantic life right now, hmm...).

What's worse? Well, you always know immediately when a good friend has found a new romantic target. How? Well, they simply start ignoring you. Bah.

Yes, I am jealous!! Why?! Because he's probably out there living out my romantic dreams!! Not fair! I want a Mr. Darcy! Where's my gripping love comedy?!

This is exactly how I feel when somebody wins the lottery. I maintain that it was my money and they had no business winning it. No business at all!!!

*rolls around*

...How is it that there are so many men in this world and I can't find one that can charm me even a little?! (Well, probably because I was in the country was 2 months, in Hong Kong for 10 days, then under house arrest due a terrible flu for around about a month now).

The only contact with a possible male lead was when I called for an ambulance. Man he was cute, that paramedic.

Too bad I was in a singlet, my PJ shorts and hadn't shaved my legs. Oh, and did I mention the rash-moustache from wiping my nose non-stop?! ARGHHH


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...Whoever is in charge of writing the plots for my love life needs to come back from their vacation and do their job! GRRRR...

meanwhile.

I want to be thin.


Man...this sucks. *throws things*

ps. Lump in breast. Fibroadenema (or whatever). Need to see specialist. Want to cut it out.

...I wonder if they'll let me keep it. Hmmmmmmmmm...